What am I honestly supposed to do?

merry christmas everyone, love you all.
it's been a great day for me !

i'm scared of losing all i know, do you guys have any idea how terrible that would be?
honestly.

I am the happiest girl alive, I swear.

life's cool :]
i've got nick, he's so sweet.
my crew, it's just cruising along -.-
liam to amuse me at school everyday LMAO.

isobel just made a bebo skinnn !
how cool is she? like seriosuly.
i love it, it has my name, some words i like, and a picture of my nike air force ones ;D
AWESOME !




awuuhhh, je-won left :"[
-tearrr- haha, she was really cool.
she gave me a nike lanyard which was pretty nice.
jieon is still staying though, until the holidays :[


today was awful.
i taxied to school, LMAO.
then in my maths test, which is worth 2 creits for ncea level 1, i could not stop laughing with isobel.
mr whatever his name was, was fucking hilarious.
he was on his laptop up the front of the class and it made the -ding- noise a couple of times.
then it was silent [except for the giggling coming from isobel and i] and then from the classroom right next door we heard music, din din din-din, din din din-din !
FUCKING CLASSIC.
then i was in a real bitching mood, then i felt so fucking sick and tired, and had a dizzy spell so i lay on the classroom floor. ewww !

natalies holidays are like devoted to working, ahhhh.
people are going away and stuff.
and the thing between isobel and madi, it all pretty much means the groups going to break over the holidays, i hope not !
but, i can really see it happening :[


i feel so ill at the moment, hopefully i get better.
maybe its because i've got my !!!PERIOD!!! [hahah, isobel's comment on my bebo]




it's chrsitmas in like less than 2 weeks, yet it so does not feel like it -.-
i hope that all my friends and family have a wonderful christmas holiday break, and EVERYBODY remmeber to take care and be safe :]

hope to see all my loved ones in one piece next year.

love you all, ciao.

natalie, isobel and i are in science. as per usual :]
liam is here too and sophie.
cool ae?


mr hall is gay !
i told him his son was gay, and he was like 'is he? he hasn't told me yet'

nick started work today -.-
8 till 5 every weekday.



it's all good, i have school anyways.

i'm bored.

me and natalie are getting out ears pierced tomorrow after school :]



seee you :]
and and and i just became natalies friend on lj, sweeet !

friday night,
i went to northlands mall and saw daniel at timezone, that was really cool.
then later on when i was waiting for kieran to finish work i saw jared !
it was awesome catching up with him again (:
i've liked kieran for ages, and he asked me out.
i started crying, oh my god !

saturday,
went to town and then zebs [found out about rush], there was a big fight on the bus happened afterwards on the way back to town.

and on sunday, i saw skater matt again.
oh my god, he's so amazing !
i remember the night we spent together, the first time we kissed.
it was so great.
warric offered me a ride in his car, i sat in the front seat.
we were driving to get more petrol and i saw matt walking over the bridge, so warric stopped so i could say hi.
it was weird ?
ahaha.

i'm so happy being with kieran, i feel so safe around him.

i'm really tired, and dozy so this won't be a good entry, buhh oh well.

today was rather amusing,

ms worne my social studies teacher organised a petition for the year 10s to be able to vote for head student, while me and natalie laughed together about tama eti with his shotgun and bare ass.

in science, we made popcorn !
isobel, jeremy and i made the best (:
ahaha, isobel wrote 'love' and 'hate' on my knuckles, then i came up with 'BEEF' and 'LAMB'

*jeremy is filling out our group sheets*
me: hurry up !
jeremy: okaaaay.
isobel: its alright.
me: I'M GOING IN-SAY-EEEE-AYYY-EEE-ANE !

lolol.

so i guess i should start with halloweeeeeen?
it was great !
costumes were classic,

sophie - xmas present [ahaha ! my idea]
natalie - doll
isobel - trailor trash
madi - candle [LOL] then a pirate
me - mikki murder piss take [somehow] then ended up wearing a bandana and gangsta hat by that end of the night

we got treats and sweets, buhh not as many as i'd hoped for course.
isobel and madi were to be back at 9, buhh sophie, natalie and i carried on in the pitch black.
we visited old people, that was kind of weirddd.
some cunt on a bike thought it would be amusing to throw eggs at us, YOU MISSED EVERYTIME YOU IDIOT !
buhh later on in the night sophie and i were hit with a water balloon launched from a car down the main road.
we went to sams house, he was a S N O B !
went to matts, he was so cool about it all (:
no time for daniel, ahaha.

oh, MADI WAS ON TELEVISION OII !
fair go, tv1, 7:30pm, HALLOWEEEEN (:
ahaha, tool tshirt &greeen pants?
coooool.



today at school, these ugly retards hayley and chelsea started shit so i threw banana at them, haha hit her in the back of the head !

ON A LIGHTER NOTE.. liam has tin foil grilllllz ;D


i have been talking to this guy on msn for fucking HOURS now, since i got home from trick or treating, its now 3 in the morning and im still up talking to him right now.. oh shit school soon O;
fuck hes hot too.


mann, i'm still living the single life.
it's not too bad really.



well, halloweeeeens over for another year :/
GUY FAWKES SOON ! fireworks. fireworks. fireworks.
i was so excited about being FINALLY able to buy fireworks this year !
buhh NO they had to put the age up.
fuckers.

sophie and i went to the canteen today at lunch,
i swear i was fucking starving O;
these russians or germans or brazillians or whatever were blowing garlic in sophies face, awuh !
and i was joking and went to take a bite of his food, then he was on the phone and i made my hand into a phone and pretending like i was talking to him.
i was yelling out fucking cunts and shit to the people ahead of me in the line because it was so hot and i was hungry and irritable, and seriously the line was not moving.
when i eventually got to the front of the queue this guy in my year level asked me to to buy him a juicy, and what do i do?
yell NO ! in his face and tell him its people like him that i hate.
seriously i H A T E all the people that push in at the front of the canteen line and get other students to buy them food rather then waiting in line themselves.


well, theres my bitching session. hahah.

weekend was terrible,
best part must have been hooking up with someone and honestly when is that the complete highlight of a persons weekend?
i was actually really nice mood this weekend,
it was great! i was giving away shit and everything O;

i was really quite sick on sunday, so i slept in and rested.
then went out to see my friends.
a friend of mine was twitching as fuck and wanted ME, yes ME to cut them a mohawk.
oh my lord, ahahaha.
wasnt the worst outcome i must say.

im was thinking of changing ym hair style, but to be honest im actually into at the moment,
im enjoying it all messy and grown out.
its great! i can play around with it and everything.
just never put hair spray in it then spend hours in the gushing wind.
i learnt my lesson.

fucking craziest night on saturday, so much shit went down.
i was so confused, still dont really know what happened.
ive been thinking about a lot of logical things lately, and thats not really anything new buhh im starting to get paranoid and stuff.
im concerned.

i was told a secret by a friend, im like the only person who knows.
i feel quite special, but it is quite freaky :/

im off now, to continue on with my art.
(: